Why are we here?

So being a 19 year old girl, I think about life a lot.

Why are we here and what is it all for? What is the purpose of living? Are we wasting time? What time is there to waste?

Adults, right. They get up in the morning, go to work, come home, have dinner, go to bed and then do it all again the next day. Why? To earn money. But why? What will this lead to?

Happiness? No, plenty of millionaires suffer depression.
Fulfilment? No, otherwise why do we all want more than we have?

I clearly have a lot of questions. Sometimes, it's hard trying to work out what you want to do with your life when you really don't know why you are here in the first place. Being an atheist, I don't really believe in heaven and hell. Although I'm not completely ruling that out...

When we die, do we float up into the clouds and greet God at the gates? Are we dragged down into the fiery pits of hell? Are we re-incarnated into a goat or a fish or something? Or are we just reborn and the circle just continues and continues?

Are we here just to love? Everyone seeks a soul mate to spend their life with (well, most people do) and many want kids and grand kids etc. But is that what we are really here for? We have kids so then they can have kids so then they can too and it just continues?

I sometimes think about what happens when we die. But what I think about more is if I'll be remembered. That scares me more than anything; that I'll just become a grave stone that people walk past without giving a thought about who is under there. Compared to the amount of dead people on earth, the number of living people is so tiny. Yet we hardily know anything about our great-grandparents and their great-grandparents and our own personal history.

Scary stuff, hey? Maybe when we die, we discover what it is all for and that is the reward we get. And ghosts appear when the person isn't ready to be told.

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